★ TRANSMUTATION ☆

Sosososososo great to have you all these while;

the hard and the tough time, the great and crazy time;

Its well appreciated! :D

Thankyou being there no matter what.

I can feel it and I knew what you've really done for me,

for the worst time,worst feelings.

You could just let me go like (:) !

Wohoooo~

The light in my darkness.

The shines around the sun.

The umbrella in the rain.

My shade of everything.

Its grateful to be the one which unable to understand [a-l-o-n-e] .

Too pretty to wrap the ugliness of life with the picture that you coloured with rainbow colours! 

Nobody would be like you. Just YOU.

The one I can feel like you're worth for it.

The endless patterns just too awesome! 

NINETEEN, ME ❤ YOU!

And HEYYYYY~! 

The worst time sudah OVER!!!

*jump high* C:

Everything changed,

turned so ❤ for every moment of my life from now onwards.

whee wheeee!~~

Happy 2013, the NEW YEAR. ❤

Kisses for 2013!
Angle prob for the eyelids, WHO CARES?! :D
heeehhh! (:

Loved,

ZhenRui·Angela 

· 爱上有始无终 ·

这一辈子

觉得最难的就是【开始】

每一次的开始

我都没办法开个很好的始

:/

那件事

不懂是怎么开始

什么时候

突然出现

开始掩盖大家的热情

不懂也不想懂得

内心的对话

总是没办法好好诠释

*厌恶*

被拒于千里之外的感觉谁爱受？

但如果值得

会不顾一切

继续下去

因为你值得

无论是你是他

我都很自私地不想失去

虽在我心中的地位不同

但都是我觉得不能少的那个

原谅我的自私

那一句爱上了我不保留；

不让任何一个消失，除非我消失。

ZhenRui.Angela ,

#RainDrop#

【甜`疼`痛`通】

就连落泪以前都没办法再看你那模糊的脸一遍

怀疑是不是最后

不是一句抱歉就能抹去一切

诚实的背后都住着刻骨的记忆铭心的伤口

那曾经在胸前晃动一切的项链

让人晕眩的记忆

都掉了

想不通很久了

明明从前就连争执都很甜美

怎么现在连说句话就弄痛一遍

雨下过以后

根本不能让什么复活

只有从新来过

故事都有画上句号的一页，

就在解开所有谜底后。

(((((((((((((=

ZhenRui.Angela ❤ 

01.09.2012

-不朽之站-

一块家园

就要有家的味道

就得有人有爱，有情有义

它可以看似冷酷

每个家人内心都对对方爱侬满溢

可以很多争执

但有万个补偿的小动作

有机会就会被发现，没机会就懵懂地被爱

不得不承认

离开家

来到这里是我个人坚决的决定

不是够残够酷够坚强

想一想

搁下的是至亲，是陪你一起长大的姐妹，有的是好友知己

独自无依无靠

不是想秀秀我有多独立

而是想看看世界

它的【美丽】它的【不完美】

体会应验它的【遗憾】它的【差一点】

挂在嘴边的‘想念’

我总学不会常挂

当我说我’想‘ 的时候

请别怀疑 :/

这一站

让我想回去的是

爸妈常说

累了就回家

人垮了就回来避一避

尽管外面情况再糟

所有·休息站·都垮了，关了，烂了，毁了，没有了

4338永远都还在！

想不到其他地方去，4338来！

它不会每天都很安宁

但却来得温暖窝心

爸，你的稳重

妈，你的情绪化你的鸡汤

婆，你的厨艺你的药物

蔚，你的自大你的聪明

卉，你的疼爱你的凶巴巴

我想靠啦! :'l

两天之差，我已经打包行李要把时间转到该到的时间，该到站的时间 ♥ 

每次回去都有特别晚餐
不管是自己烹饪或外食  ♥ 

会结伴一起gym的妈咪 :D

Dinner when mummy was sick!
Dats why she was absent. huhu~

-通往不朽之站者上-
ZhenRui Angela ❤

3.10 AM
14/ 08/ 2012

The sheep birthday!!! :)

生日快乐我们对你说

Happy 19th birthday AMELIA girl :)

Sorry for giving u a very simple de birthday celebration but we did it very sincere de! Hoho :)

Realize that we took so many photos today! Photoholic!!! Hahaha

_These are all the JING DIAN photo that had been taken from u! :D haha

sorry for the late posting :)

Just from -Dor-

19/04/12

Been forced by myself to wake at 7 am
Going to class and 8 am
Everything just seems to be like going so wrong although its so normal

Mood swings.Flu.
Took out my tissue
the tissue which you gave me yesterday
put inside my bag
makes me think of you again
>< ): :C

Ever since my 19 in every month is so uneasy
April ,12 is not excluded
Its just half day of 19 now
I feel so :S dy!! :/

how I wish what I wish can come true
I mean is reality ; TRUE.

Too many question marks appearing in my mind and thoughts
Everyone asking ; I would just answer IDK.
Whats wrong ?
:/

The feeling of worry although I know I dont need to be worried
ZhenRui = stupid!!!!!!
HAIH

Did a ben dan thing ever in my life just now!
LOL
You will know after the thing happennnnned kay (:

Staring at the texts , flash back of your voice which really in pain
remind me of imagine-ing the pain you're going through
Makes me in pain too
the parasympathetic system in me is just too functionable! :/
Lacrimation.Hates

The pain of your hand ,
same with which in my left side of the chest.

So sorry
for the things what I may not be able to do for you
D:

Anyway,
praying hard for you ;
All the best and get well soon!

19/04/12

ZhenRui.Angela

想念 ♥

时光匆匆
毫不留情地离开
它不回头
让许多人事物
渐渐变迁

如今的大家
不再像以往一样
盼望的只是那可挂念你我的心不要变

你的疼爱
你的不嫌弃
你的从不投诉
你温柔的脾气
你的管理

成为你的需要
曾今是我最大之荣幸
现在是怎样
我不懂
也没资格去懂

只想让你知道
一直没变的心
我的还在
不想让它变
所以拼命保留一切美好的
不要加以摧毁但配合好吗
因为懂我的
真的只有你啦

************
除了你
我找不到能快乐的意义
************

-想念的-

ZhenRui.Angela (: ♥

BITTER

What an unusual weekend ever

Feels like I got nothing to do but missyou
Tried to do everything
Tried to remember im busy with so many other things
All ths while
your image is the only thing appear in my mind
A text without realised it earlier
A text that pissed me off at the moment
A text that I cannot react
A text that eating me from inside
A text that made me did so many crazy stuffs
turning the night to the day ;
turning the day to the night

I dont want to think what im thinking now
I dont want to feel the ache which came to me
I dont want
I dont want

))':

I dont know who to tell when the incident just happened
Everyone around was so speechless and helpless
What more im the one who involved in?
What if anything happen?

An Unusual weekend ever.
Please END this weekend ASAP ,
GOD ;
I BEG YOU.

ZhenRui.Angela.

明明的我：）

真实的我

明明的我

很不喜欢伺奉别人

但不知何时起，到了那个社会

我变的开始需要看别人的脸色而过活

明明的我

知道那是个不归路

却还是一头栽进去

让自己不自觉地塞入一个两人选一的情况

明明的我

早就应该说个明白

却拖到最后害得伤几无辜

让我最后两头不到岸

明明的我

爱恨分明

但最后却选择不表露出来

只能埋在心里自己有数

明明的我

不喜欢被批评但还是任由他们说

但他们却不肯其他人说他们

  请问这算什么世界啊！

明明的我

知道那是不可能但还是不肯放弃

但最后受到的心伤更深

泪流满面自个儿忧伤

明明的我

不喜欢拒人

但这不会拒绝人的习惯使到别人的利用

拒绝了却得看别人的眼色

所以为何我那么的希望可以读心理科是希望可以多了解人的个性他们的头脑里在想什么，我才不会那么容题被占便宜：）

YOU FRIED my Friday ♥

Early in the morning ,
I ought to get up from the lovely warm bed and go for class.
But who cares ,
althought get annoyed and woke up by the THREE alarms ,
I still can bear with it and wake up in time,
Becauseeeeeeeee...
Its FRIDAY! 

❤ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ❤

Went to class as usuall
Nothing special (:

Craving for choc pearl milk tea,

So went to Tesco by Inti bus with Christiene 

Hehehehehehe :P
Thanks for the companion, Chris! *loves*

This is what brought up my SMILE, to my FRYDAY :D
Thankie Chris (: ♥

After this,

otw back to our hostel ,

I went to AO 

to collect my pos laju the post laju from my besties

♥♥

Sorry for collecting it so late

I actually went on Wed,

the day after you told me you had posted something for me

but AO did not collect the parcels until today (:

I was just realised the parcel from Dor ,

never thought that Ivy posted one too :O

Until the time I 38 38,

read all the name

and get these! :D

I went back room ASAP and did this to the pos lajuS! :P

Ngeheheheheh :P
Sorry for tearing off the paper to this pattern xD

I ♥ the words here!!

THANKIE I.D.A.S.A.P.A ♥ :D
You guys are the main character who made my Friday,
Awesome to the MAX ! C:
Love you ALL.
Thanks for everything you all did,
to me and just for ME.
*APPRECIATE 99*
♥♥♥

p/s# DOREEN LEE!!!
I did recieve your pressie lahhh :D
Mai emo wei!
ngehehhehe!
Cause I was writting this bloggie :/
Uploading pictures here in this kind of place and internet line,
only can update it after a day I started this~
Dont sad sad!!!
ILY,always!:DD ♥

The facial expression when I unwrapped the pos lajuS :

You guys ROCK my Fri-Fry DAY!
HEHEHEHEHE!
Love everyone I mentioned here.
And and anddddd
Lotsa of thankieee to you ALL!

I end my 09.03.12 here ((:
Have a great weekend everyone! :D
♥♥♥♥

Loved,
ZhenRui.Angela ♥

Happy 19th birthday蓁芮：）

Happy birthday yo! ^^

Happy always and take care everything yo! I still remember last year what we bought to u as a birthday present at PLKN! :) all is about ELMO!!! :) this year u are away from Sarawak so it's so sad that we can't celebrate birthday together with u norh >< hahahaha but nvm, stg had sent out to ur UNI hehe btw, without realizing, u Had changed our Facebook anniversary to ur birthday date hahaha this make me feel so cute and funny hehe i bet ur friends at west malaysia gave u a memorable birthday party!! BUAHAHAHA :) nvm, ur party at east malaysia will be replace when u are bck! :))) 

 anyway, happy birthday to u again, Tay Zen Zuie hahahahaha has a blast birthday :)

Just from -Dor-

2012

26days ago.
如果有一天我离开了
并不是我不爱了
而是我受够了

被丢弃的感觉
就会有想哭的感觉

小孩的天真

Talk infront of me,
but not behind of me
Or you cant even recognize a eff direction?

这样跟软禁有什么分别？

当我说我想哭
那种情绪的确是有在的

因为你
我找不着真实的自己

你从不曾发现金鱼的眼泪

How I treat you show what attitude you actually deserve.


25days ago.

I rather be emo than being torture by these people constantly. Seriously,it sucks.
Try to think in other's shoe.
What will you feel?
Exactly the same. This is totally insane.

我看不见幸福这两个字
还有属于它真正的意义

You gave me unlimited sleepless night here.

10days ago.

真的不想分享我的不开心
只想努力地把喜悦散播于四周

原来只是暂时性的. (':

不喜欢！ :/

9days ago.

Just to forget everything.
I dont know how to let anyone else in.
Im afraid.
Because of you.

Forget but never let go. ('x

最擅长的就是像小孩一样爱哭
虽然这道这样没办法把事情解决
但可以让我很舒服。（：

8days ago.

吃药吃到怕 ):

7days ago.

我不要清醒着
清楚地
让所有记忆
划过我的脑海
好恶心
它们腐蚀着我灵魂的肉体

如果真的不耐烦
那就不要回 :D

5days ago.

Lies is the only destroyer of every relationships!


ZhenRui.Angela. (x

原来我傻

痛恨小孩子
却可以跟她们玩得不像样
讨厌做的家务
却可以卸下一切努力做好
讨厌的烟熏味
却可以接受
不发脾气
讨厌在室外用餐
却硬硬说没关系
你舒服就好
都一样
讨厌被指指点点
被比较
却让你跟其他的女生比
虽然知道自己稳输
却还自我安慰
硬撑出自信来
放弃多少睡眠
多少朋友
为的是安排时间
陪你做你想做的事情
从很爱户外活动的
却比自己呆在室内
努力变成你觉得好看的样子
但每次听见赞美的话都用在她们身上
好希望你可以就骗我一次
说她们都差过我
希望你要的唯一是自己
原来只是在做梦
在我最累的时候安慰需要安慰的你
还继续被觉得我没做到扶持的那部分
我不会像你一样
害怕身边的朋友发现我们的关系不好
但却因为你介意而跟她们闹
原来我傻.

P/S: 我不会装饰这篇东西。

《她》

其实

每个女生都一样·

虽然平常不会比其他的女生温柔体贴

不明显的细心

好动既粗俗

但是只要温柔的男朋友

卸下一切

对她温柔

就算是默默地支持

她也会感受到

俩人之间的感情一定暴涨

对于爱打球的女生

懂自己的男朋友留在球场附近

为了那一小段休息时间

可以过去陪陪她

微笑着说些褒义的话

她会感觉很暖

就算在热战或是冷战

怒气都会消失

她只要一个懂她的他

一个凡事以她为先的他

更是一个会为她想很多很多东西的他

一个感觉很被重视的他

就足够了

很多时候她懂很多东西
只是不说，不表明

ZhenRuiAngela.

开心怎么能少了你 :')

也许她可能忘了回家的路，
也许她可能在团圆时，路过家门前，
也许她可能满怀喜乐地与你朋友庆祝，
但也许她不知道，她的家人就那么喜欢她按家门铃，
在团圆饭前踏入脚步进入门口，大声地说：爸，妈，妹，弟，我回来了~

快要三年了，她还是倔强，
坚持着出头的毅力，
永远都认为，没有成功的一天，
她是不会与她家人碰面的。





她的二妹，
每天都希望电话里会有一封是她发给她的
她的二妹，只要孤单一个人，总会不直觉的掉泪，
原因只因为太想念她了。
她永远都迷惑大姐为什么选择流浪在外，而不回家团聚 :(

她的离开，另外一个她，得担起一个大姐的身份
受尽家务，弟妹的欺负。
以前姐护妹，妹护姐，可是现在俩人得志强面对坎坷~眼睁睁看着她的离开却有说不出的挽留，因为一切都发生在无人晓得的情况~

今天的团圆，

她的家人虽然都不提她，但很明显的每人心中都有她的存在

就连她最小的妹妹，因为她也终于在她二姐面前落泪

时间都证明了，以前无知的小孩，都已成长到思念流泪.

也许每一年的愿望都一样，但希望还是希望，全家都还是持着希望等她回来

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤祝她新年快乐。❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

吵架也好，斗嘴也好，开心也好，出气也好，你永远是我心中最好的姐姐 ^^

From Dor.

HAIR.

The hair I live with them for 3months.

I dont want to leave them ):

------------------------------------------

Tears just droppp when I look into the mirror.

I just want my hair backkk.

Turn back time, please?

*innocent eyes*

How can a ''professional hair stylist'' cut this kind of hair?

Not PRO at all la :'l

Dont you understand chinese?

Why not just tell me and i'll explain in ENG / BM?!

WT*.

You dont f**king understand what is cut only the top and do not change the length.

And you just tell me this kind of hairstyle need curl at the side AFTER you done the hair cut?!

Why not you tell me BEFORE you put the scissors together?..

You know how upset is this?!

Well, I wish that you read this.

DO NOT ever do this to other customer again.

It hurts 9999999999!

#%#$^

URHHG.

  

ZhenRui.Angela.